I rarely feel like I know exactly what I should do. In a day, I can go from video producer and editor to choreographer to dance teacher to film creative, and there never really seems to be a right answer about what I’m supposed to do. I feel passionate about everything I do in a day, and I’ve been working hard to develop skills in all of those areas, but it never seems to help me answer the question of what I should do.
But the thing is, I don’t think it’s just me. I’m fairly certain that every young artist has felt this way at some point. Discovering what it is that you want to do is one of the most exciting (and incredibly difficult) journeys in an artist’s career. If you’ve ever heard my podcast, Dance Like Everyone’s Watching, you’ve inevitably heard me say how important it is for young artists to take the time to find their passion and discover the art they want to create. Nearly every guest I’ve had on the show has agreed that it’s incredibly important to find your passion, but our conversations always develop into how difficult of a process this actually is. You can’t exactly just sit down for an hour or two and find your passion. It’s a lifelong process of creating, trying new things, and paying attention to what excites you.
Lately, I’ve been trying to pay attention to the times when I don’t know what to do, and how they fit into discovering my passion. It feels like all of these different interests and skills are pulling me in different directions, demanding different things of my time. But I’m starting to realize that for every new skill I develop and every new interest I find, there are new projects I want to create and new places I want to go with my art. And even more eye-opening is that I’m starting to have new goals for my work as I develop new skills and interests – which can be really intimidating! But ultimately, changing goals has to be a normal thing – especially for a young artist. If finding your passion is a lifelong journey, then it only makes sense that your goals will change along the way.
I’m not sure if knowing what to do ever gets easier – most likely, it’s not even possible to have it all figured out. But maybe that’s the fun of being an artist. Every interest, every skill, every exciting thing you encounter is an opportunity to create something new. And while the whole process can feel a little bit like being lost at sea, I’m getting used to the idea that it’s going to take patience and practice to find out which of my skills and interests are going to combine to create the art that I want to create. It’s difficult to be patient, but if there’s anything worth being so patient about, this has got to be it. So here’s to being lost at sea and not knowing what to do… because we are on the most important journey that doesn’t have an end: finding our passion.